I am finally the fool!!!

We have always been asked to do due diligence whenever something is up and seems too good to be true. If by "we" I am overstepping my sphere of intended receipt of knowledge then I guess I should make this more personal. I am a school teacher currently between jobs. That is fancy jibe for "I am out of work". But I must say this was of my own making. I was working at a drama free school where going to work was such a joy. Then a big opportunity came in and promised more work but that came along with added incentive....more money. God knows I was never going to pass out on that. I need to make that next step in my life and that is seeing more money pile up in the bank. So I quit, since the job was in the bag. I had done the interview, I had passed it, I had drawn up plans and all. Then the the cat and mouse game started. "You are the best candidate but let us check some others out", "We are failing to synchronize your timetable with the official school schedule","Can you give us more time than this?" I should have read the signs. My house of cards was falling down. I said to myself,"This is how it all ends." They did the "don't call me. imma call you" routine and this was eating at me. I should never have quit before confirmation because I have been waiting and writing this blog explains to you all that this is me giving up. Time to look elsewhere. Only thing that worries me is that it has only been a month and my savings have almost given out. We live for the taking just like the stone age. May be we need to change or may be, I need to change. I feel real stupid right now.

You are not the boss of me

Yes, no....may be, I don't know. Can you repeat the question. Those are the very first lyrics of the famous They Might Be Giants track that was well known as the theme song of Malcolm in the Middle. A series about a wacko family with the one person supposed to be sane only a stubborn know it all who should have been told that no one likes a smartass. But thats is besides the point, the thing is I am here on this forum to assertively inform everyone that I am going to look at any kind of authority as a tool to suppress the creativity and henceforth the well being of the serf. I had never in my life dreamt of being conventional because God knows we are not going anywhere if convention is our holy grail. All uit does is stagnate us and make us as docile as the drugged schizo after 9pm. I am sick of it and I am getting out. Heck, I have wanted out for a while now and shame on me for having stayed in because I took away from myself. So to all those who think you have a thing on me, I'll say this...do what you will but get one thing straight, YOU ARE NOT THE BOSS OF ME!!!

We are neanderthals: I can't shoulder all the blame

We are neanderthals: I can't shoulder all the blame: Just last night I got into a little trouble when I told everyone that my big sister can not hold her liquor. Well it was not all bad in the ...

I can't shoulder all the blame

Just last night I got into a little trouble when I told everyone that my big sister can not hold her liquor. Well it was not all bad in the beginning. Actually a great number of the ninjas around me agreed that she needs to see someone...that it was or is crucial. Only problem came in when much later in the night, one bugger comes in and thinks it is "tell all" night. Mr. McCan't Shut Up goes on to call my sister to tell her how much fan we are having and starts saying things he shouldn't have. Now partly it is my fault, good friends do not let one make drunken calls. I'm sure it is in the Bible somewhere. So my sister is furious and all. She calls me spitting fire and then my Darwinian senses just struck like a juggernaut into a wall. I instinctively threw my drunk fool of a friend under the bus like it was second nature to me. I completely turned things around on him making him the villain just so I would face my sister without having one of those weird moments where it is just the two of you and you can't even look at each other. Come to think of it, it is second nature to me...I have done this before, and I always have. And the sooner others evolve to that level the better they cam maneuver in their little lives.

Will I ever win?

It is never a good sign if you hesitate at anything. It in a way means you are not sure if you can go through with whatever it is you are doing. See that is the thing, Once you hesitate, there are a million others who would have done what you were trying to do in a heartbeat given whatever situation you are facing. Why is that? Because this is a struggle and we are all trying to do whatever it takes to be something other than the meagre being that is ourselves. We want to be CEO's, Presidents, Big names...hell, some of us even want to be drug lords. But it all comes down to who is willing to risk it all. Who is willing to make a case for themselves even in the midst of major ass kicking adversary. Are you? Well show the world that you are not going to get wiped off the face of this earth in the history books. Make this the beginning of your timeline